Have you ever been angry with God? I was having one of those heart to heart talks with Him this morning. I was angry about a few things and I took the bold step to tell Him about it. Along the way I was telling Him, “I was ready to give my life in this situation and you didn’t come through.”
He stopped me right there in the midst of my bellyaching and said, “That is your problem – you still think it is your life.” He’s right. This is not my life – it is His. It was bought with a price. I have the wrong perspective – I don’t have anything to be angry about. I am not dead yet.
Here I was laying in a position of submission as I prayed and I realized I have a long way to go to get to real submission in my life. The image of the cross came blazing to my mind – loud shouts of “Crucify him, crucify him!” rang in my ears. The rank of an angry crowd rose up in my nose. Only now it is I whose flesh needs to be crucified. I am not dead yet.
I repented. He was faithful and just to forgive my sin and cleanse me from unrighteousness.
Then of course my mind went to the scene in Monte Python’s Holy Grail. I’ve never before identified with the man being carried to the cart – but now I do.
Are you dead yet?
